Realities of Adulthood

I remember being a child and looking up to the cool aunties and uncles and thinking I can’t wait to be an adult. They always seemed so independent, looked so put together, could do whatever they wanted and most importantly had a lot of money. Now I’m an adult and I feel so betrayed. Nobody told me it was gonna be so hard. No one gave me a list of things I should look out for like:

1. Being smart at school has almost nothing to do with you “making it” in real life.
2. Being independent ain’t all that when life drops a bomb on you and you have to figure out how to resolve the damn problem.
3. You definitely can’t do whatever you want, if anything there’s a whole bunch more expectations you have to meet (don’t get me started on this
4. The money is nothing when you have a shitload of bills to pay.
5. There is no happily ever after, you’re not gonna meet someone who just gets you and is perfect for you blah blah blah. You make do with what you have and try not to kill each other.

There’s a whole bunch more, trust me I could go on for forever. But I wish someone had at least given me an inkling that it wasn’t all that. Maybe I would have stopped trying so hard to be an adult and just enjoyed my childhood while I had it….yeah right.

Driving Phobia

One of the first adult skills most people pick up is driving. It’s a huge step towards independence (assuming this skill comes with a car to drive).

For most people its just getting into a car and zooming off. Yeah. Not me.

I have a genuine fear of this basic life skill. I start anticipating and dreading a trip days before I have to drive. I plan out routes in my head, get myself all worked up about the busy junctions I’ll encounter on the trip. And lets not even talk about hitting the express!

So this week I decided to read up on “driving related anxiety”, and it turns out I’m not alone! Loads of people have this weird thing. Granted a lot of them have suffered traumatic experiences in a car. But I fall under the category of people afraid to drive as a result of performance anxiety. Basically being scared of how good I’m driving.

After a lot of research I found that the best way to overcome this fear is to get into the car and drive and that’s exactly what I’ve been doing all week. And so far so good! I haven’t killed myself or anyone yet. I say my affirmation before getting into the car (“I’m a safe driver. I’ll arrive safely at my destination.”) and it’s really getting better each day.

Can you relate to this irrational fear?